In the year of the pig;

I am stupid. That is the smartest thing I can say.

2012-02-11T22:44:00.003+08:00

Another fail relationship has come to a close, I can't say I wasn't expecting it. I was never really happy. Even that, I tried my best to be a good partner. I don't want my mood and happiness to be dependent of anyone else anymore. I don't want to get into stupid, pointless relationships. I want to love myself, and only when the right time comes for someone to love me right and vice-versa.

I've been drifting, like something. Just a thing without real consciousness. I thought that if I'd gotten out of that relationship I'd have more time to myself. To grow, and to learn. But no, I'm still drifting.

Grow up soon, Michelle.

Zee Avi - Swell Window

2011-09-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

Like a swell window I will wait for you,
I’ll ride the moment ’till I catch you again
‘Till I catch you again.
uuuuuu.. uuuuu..

2011-09-16T17:06:00.002+08:00

I admire the thinkers.

Those who think, and feel.

I've been so caught up when this relationship that I think little of anything else. It scares me. I feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes, like its empty, totally empty, im just struggling to keep its shelf together.

That's why I am back at this old blog.

Where is my mind, where is my mind.

2011-07-27T00:20:00.003+08:00

homosexuality

Just finished a week rushing on a documentary for my 'contemporary issues' module. It was an eye-opener and a real test on my patience.

Ironically, I didn't choose the topic, neither did I agree on it. Three other of my straight group mates choose, because they thought it was an 'interesting' topic, it without my consent. It was a real challenge working with a bunch of people who assume they know something about such a complex subject, but don't. Other than being, inefficient, lazy, and stubborn.

Fortunately, I did manage to wake their ideas up and give them a little better perspective on what homosexuals have to go through. The public, especially people my age, may say they have no problem with it. I somehow still feel that straight people believe that their relationships are more 'credible' than a homosexual relationship. The public is still so ignorant. They don't understand, and that why they judge. So as homosexual, everyone should come out and let the world known we are among you and we are not aliens. :D

We managed to get an A that I don't think we deserve. I doubt my lecturer himself understands much about the topic. Either way, an A is an A. I should be happy.

2011-05-24T02:29:00.002+08:00

I lost my mind when I was with her. Claudia. Even her name sounds strange. I think I lost a little of my sense of self. That's what I mean.

With you now, it just so tiring. I don't even bother finding back any sense of "self". I'm fading in.

2011-05-01T02:01:00.000+08:00

2011-04-25T21:13:00.001+08:00

I have thoughts of quitting school even when it just started. What is wrong with me. Perhaps I should have just gone to JC.

Empty: No Substance

2011-04-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

I think the saddest thing is thinking how pointless this life is yet you would never take it. It feel as if I am stuck. I don't know when was the last time I felt this way. I find that as if I have lost meaning. I am sad. I don't know what I am doing with my life. I'm thinking maybe that I've chosen the wrong course. Come on, am I really that interested in media at all. I think not, maybe that will change. Sigh. I don't know what I am doing.

I am no good at handling people. I'm selfish. I'm proud. I don't know where all the my friends have gone. I miss everyone that at some point really cared. Where are they.

And I really hate this lesbian scene. I really hate it. I hate them. I wonder how long since I have haboured so much hate in others. Why am I so tainted. I feel like im losing. myself.

Why are you not here.

Now I'm trying to write something that makes any sense about radio. I don't know what to write. Radio. I know shit about radio. The only thing I like about radio is the music lush plays. I can't even stand the DJs. Their programmes aren't even relavant to me.

2011-02-26T01:52:00.002+08:00

It is impossible to love someone like you, plain impossible.

Now she will know how I really felt, when she calls me weak for someone like you. Let me see how long this will last.

Someone like you just needs to get over your damn self.

Thanks a lot for the pain you selfish bitch. You were never worth it.

Sigh. Why did I fall in love with you.

I am. Not, weak. Trust me.

Her Us We She

2011-02-20T01:28:00.002+08:00

I think your whole world is or was previously shaped by her,

and if I have the ability,

I’m going to change it.

If, I have the ability.

2011-02-17T16:18:00.002+08:00

She tells me she loves me while giving her heart to another.

Doesn't this sound familiar.

Anyway, I'm going for job interviews on the 20th and 24th! And PH has this flyer giving job.

Yay. Money.

Everything has only lead me to you.

2011-02-16T04:00:00.004+08:00

Thoughts, words I forgot to write.

Dwelling in people and relationship, losing touch of self.

Sometimes I'd like to go back. When times were much simply, when I was alone. When I'd just walk or cycle to wherever my legs take me to be alone with my thoughts.

but I don't regret anything that I've gone through though. because I realize, meeting those people only lead me to you my dear.

2011-02-11T22:05:00.003+08:00

I wonder if its fun for them to leave me hanging like that.

They ALWAYS do.

ALWAYS,

Frustration.

2011-02-11T22:01:00.006+08:00

They change, they play, they like two people at once, they hide.

Then they accuse me of it.

And they said they would never want to hurt me.

I know you are broken, but I have feelings too.

2011-01-26T05:22:00.002+08:00

Okay, its understandable why someone like you would do something to hurt someone that hurt you. It okay, I get it, its just you. All the best. Don't get hurt again. Hope you don't go around hurting others too.

2011-01-22T03:47:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry,

but I'm not the one who's going to love you.

2011-01-22T03:32:00.003+08:00

As much as a part of me would like the idea of being with you forever, I know it could never work out again. WE are just two too tainted people. I doesn't hurt as much to see you again. It's kinda nice to see you again. Anyway, I hope we can become friends eventually. I think that idea is better.

I doubt the whole point of relationships. I think we are just all lonely people looking for companionship. Righttt, I forgot, thats the point.

2011-01-21T15:04:00.000+08:00

Everything feels better now, but I still can't help but wish you were here.

2011-01-20T04:16:00.001+08:00

I wish I was better looking.

I wish I was more out-going.

2011-01-15T04:09:00.002+08:00

I going mad. I can't forget her. I cannot. I tried. Omg. Its been one month. How long till I move on. I'm so fucking pathetic.

2011-01-13T02:40:00.002+08:00

The saddest thing about not moving on is realising that the other person has already.

I just keep going back. Now, I'm just going to have to force myself to forget you. I know I can. Forget you.

You're a mind-fucker anyway, why am I so hung over about you. Fuck you! Okay forget forget forget. I shall never, from this moment, visit your blog or fb. Never again.

2011-01-10T04:34:00.000+08:00

I wish you still loved me and I wish that if you did, you would have the guts to show me.

2011-01-10T01:44:00.001+08:00

If I was stronger, I'd still be with ya.

Ain't that some shit.

2011-01-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

I don't think you get me.

2011-01-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

Everyone is just stupid.

Stupid stupid stupid.

2011-01-07T00:49:00.001+08:00

renee and claudia.

they look awfully compatible!

much more compatible than me and her.

they smile the same way!

Hope she's happy. Hope renee is all mighty. Hope they have a fulfilling relationship. :)

2011-01-03T02:57:00.001+08:00

I think of her everyday.
I wonder now if she ever still does think of me.

2010-12-28T01:59:00.001+08:00

I think we are going to fast. This is scary.

2010-12-26T04:46:00.003+08:00

Now when I see your face, I go "why did I date you?"

Its not because I suddenly think your ugly or anything.

but extreme insecurity is sad.

and I pity you.

I'm so glad to be moving on. :)

I really don't give a damn about you anymore. I surprise myself.

2010-12-26T04:41:00.002+08:00

I don't get it when people say there's no point in apologising.
Yea, it won't fix it problem, and that's why an apology to express regret is for right?

-_-

2010-12-26T04:36:00.003+08:00

I really like you, but

lets take things slow. Please.

2010-12-26T04:33:00.002+08:00

Patience is not the ability to wait. It is the ability to remain satisfied with the present despite whatever situation. Yea something like that.

Because there is really no point in "waiting".

2010-12-17T01:54:00.001+08:00

I wish I had someone to cry to

2010-12-17T01:46:00.001+08:00

My heart might be broken, but it isn't gone.

For the next one~~~~

Until I find you.

2010-12-17T01:43:00.002+08:00

Farwell my sweet.

Though anger lurks with me, the truth is I will miss you awfully. I could never bring myself to really hate you. But it is easier that way, isn't it.

It pains me to not have a bye said from you. It really pains me more than anything.

They won't understand.

Sigh.

Sadness.

2010-12-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

I cannot sleep.

I've haven't had the need to sleep early in weeks. But I have to. I have to work tomorrow. Not because I need to money. Not really. I have nothing to spend on anyway. But because of the lack of a better thing to do. To kill time. To get my mind off things.

Things.

Sigh.

I need to sleep.

2010-12-12T22:00:00.000+08:00

Love,

That is your insecurities speaking.

2010-12-07T01:15:00.004+08:00

There is no other girl I adore more than you. But things will never go back to how they used to be.

It was stupid of me to ever expect anything from you.

Tmr I have a job interview at Parco Milinia Walk! Sale Asst for some shop. Geez I hope they pay well.

She just loves to say bye to me.

2010-12-05T02:45:00.001+08:00

I'm losing it.

2010-12-01T12:32:00.001+08:00

If you cannot find it in yourself to forgive me, then I guess there is really no hope for us anymore.

2010-11-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

I find my life so boring and meaningless at the moment. Working, being depressed over a girl, joining a competition I have totally no interest in.

wtf. why do I keep getting myself in situations I don't want to be in. I can't wait to go back for a meditation class, yoga class, maybe mauy thai!

2010-11-30T14:36:00.003+08:00

I seriously can't figure out what is your fucking problem -_-

Hate these wordplays, just tell me exactly what you want from me.

2010-11-22T04:38:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday my dear

2010-11-22T04:28:00.002+08:00

Let us dwell in young love and romance.
I will be strong I will be faithful.

Just let us be.
Forget the past, for that is the past.

I just want to be with you, and you to be happy.

Refuse

2010-11-12T02:12:00.002+08:00

The tables have turned.

I like you, I want you.

But I refuse to get myself into deep and too attached to you.

And I refuse to let anyone be responsible for my own happiness.

I refuse.

So that you cannot HURT me again. I refuse.

On a lighter note: I CAN'T STAND BITCHES.

Enya - May It Be

2010-11-11T02:15:00.000+08:00

May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home

2010-11-11T01:05:00.001+08:00

I'm determined to go for a meditation retreat soon.

2010-11-09T17:53:00.003+08:00

Everything is better now. I said I'd stay with you. Because I want to. I will stick to my word and hold on to you.

Dramas look very entertaining from the outside, but when you're in it, it feels really fucked.

2010-11-08T06:55:00.000+08:00

Goals in 2011:

Stop smoking
Stop drinking
Become Asexual
Stop eating meat

fuck off if you think I'm boring.

2010-11-08T03:57:00.003+08:00

I've seen your most beautiful side. How could I have not seen it all this while. Its the one I fell in love with. I see beyond your flaws, this is the real you. You are so beautiful. Almost angelic. I will stay in love with you. I don't want your body, I don't want a fling. I want you. I want your heart. I want you to love me. I want to learn to love you eventually.

I don't trust people, that is true. No one knows me. I don't trust people. I would trust you.

Uncle Nick's Birthday

2010-11-07T01:04:00.002+08:00

Aunt cooked up a feast for Uncle Nick's Birthday. Indian food. Woohoo. Love it.

Vegetable Dahl, Archar, Nann, Fish, Cereal prawns, Tandori Chicken.

2010-11-06T23:36:00.003+08:00

You must be upset at me once again. I can feel it in your words.

I will disappoint you. I'm already sorry.

I can't stand disappointing you over and over again.

I never thought I'd see how much I mean to you.

Boring

2010-11-05T02:16:00.002+08:00

They are going to build flats in front of mine.

Been smoking way to much.

Free coke advertisement

Grilled fish from Warren.

Cui.

Bebe

2010-11-05T02:07:00.002+08:00

2010-11-05T00:45:00.002+08:00

My ex has been talking to me about killing herself all day. I can't tell for sure if she really means it. I think her nature is quite unpredictable. I'm worried for her.

I'm totally against suicide. Its wrong because no one has the right to take his/her own life. It is stupid, foolish and selfish.

2010-11-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

I still smile when I see those pictures of what we once were. Care little of the things you say about me because I know they are your ways of making yourself feel better. By all meant, go ahead. Say anything you want. Its okay. I hope your friends will always be the ones there for you. I hope and abundance of love will always be on you. I hope you will always realise this love. I hope for your belief in yourself to be always be there. Whatever it is, you are amazing. Don't forget that.

But whatever it is, I could never love you like I used to.

2010-11-04T02:46:00.005+08:00

I've never felt so tainted as a person in my life. This period is a bad one. I'm not the person I want to be. At this point, all I can think of is the suffering. I can't care for anyone else. I turned down Mirabel's offer to volunteer for trybe at Ai Tong School. Usually, I would be all up for it. Today, I was thinking to myself "would they really want someone as tainted as me to guild these kids" I think not. No, I'm not the person I want to be now. I have to focus all my energies to get there. Until then, I'm on my own. Then again, I always was.

Talking to Edith and Joel was able to lift my spirits a little though!

2010-11-04T02:36:00.002+08:00

Do you really want to know how broken I am now?

2010-11-03T21:45:00.005+08:00

9:32pm-9:40pm 3 November via text.

CC: Hehe I want hellokitty capsule and keychains. Get for me???^__^

Me: Wah so thinkskin ahh.. Hahaha where to get?

CC: You don't want then byebye!!!
Me: Haha you funny leh you..

CC: Bye.

I'm worth hello kitty keychains to you.

2010-11-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

I think I'll find myself crying again tonight. But this time, I will never even think about going back to you.

Over you

2010-11-02T20:16:00.002+08:00

I can’t keep up caring for someone that doesn’t. You had your chance. But I’m not exactly good enough, am I? Bye. I'm moving on for good.

Good luck on finding someone that will stay. I hope you don't fuck them up. You were never worth it to love.

2010-11-02T06:56:00.002+08:00

Good morning sunshine! Its 6:56am and I only have two hours of sleep. It's time go get my A1 at Combine Humanities (Positivity Positivity Positivity). Hopefully I get to see that cute girl today xD

After today's paper it'll be 6 days till my next paper, so that leaves me time to prepare for SS and Art.

2010-11-01T22:30:00.001+08:00

Wish I was in love again

2010-11-01T21:17:00.004+08:00

I'm burning. It's all in my head.

The examinations are starting to take a toll on me. I'm losing steam.

Damn.

Just gotta hang on a little more. 5 papers to go.

What's making me happy now is the bobor terigu, and of course the movie fantastic 4 showing my Channel 5 now. I feel so simple. ^^

I'm moving on, for good. Thank you for showing me for clearly that I don't need you in my life at all. I'm glad we already broke up so it not as painful. No, I don't regret.

On a more serious note, I think I'm getting fat. Gosh. Gotta stop eating.

2010-10-30T01:09:00.002+08:00

I was reading tumblrs today. I was reminded how there are people from 2 different spectrum of society. The broken and the fine. I, very fortunately, am very blessed. I have two parents, though not exactly expressingly loving, they get along. I'm not rich, my family has a major financial issue, but I'm still living quite well. I don't have a lot of friends, but I have a hand full of friends I would trust my life with.

Then there's you, and people like you. I can never say I will ever know how hard your life is, but if there's anything I can do to make you feel better, please let me know.

all i want is you, will you be with me

ily

2010-10-29T06:53:00.002+08:00

With all this negativity I conjured, I DOUBT we can EVER go back to what we WERE. Perhaps the yearning, like you said, is better than actually what you want.

From today on onwards, I will stop myself at all cost to not message you, unless of course you message me first. The ball's on your court.

Frustration

2010-10-29T03:09:00.002+08:00

She wants me to date other people to know if I really want her. But this isn't the way, isn't it? If I don't want you I'd date other people, but I want you. I don't know if I can keep this up. You're great but, it really isn't that hard letting go of someone that doesn't even want to hold on.

She wants me to date other people but she doesn't want me to move on. Wtf does she think I am. Forget it. I'm moving on. Well, you are really confusing. I guess you just don't know what you want. You say that I'm putting the blame on you. Dear, we both know you are very good with words, you are the one that's putting the blame on me. I am the one at wrong, the liar. I said I was sorry, what more do you want now. Know tell me.

Love fool

2010-10-28T13:34:00.002+08:00

I know you don't really care, but

I don't care if you really do, because all I want is you.

2010-10-27T21:08:00.001+08:00

She was the one that blew me off. No, I am not lying. And I'm not even going to say anything because she told me "Do not contact me. Bye."

Okay, as you wish dearest.

2010-10-27T19:00:00.000+08:00

Tainted

2010-10-27T17:43:00.002+08:00

It's always tease tease tease.

You're happy when I'm on my knees...

You know how much I want to be with you, why do you keep pushing me away. I can't read your mind. Do you want me to stay or leave? For now, I'll go, I'll see if you really wanted me to stay in the first place.

E. Maths papers were very doable! I managed to complete every question from paper 1 and 2, except the part of vectors in paper 2. I have to idea what the column vectors are suppose to mean. o.o Damn. Should have read up on it today. Ey. Too late. A. Math here I come. A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1. AMEN!

http://anavrinbebe.wordpress.com

2010-06-20T00:59:00.006+08:00

NEW BLOG <- Click There

Hey! Gonna try wordpress!

Staring At The Sun

2010-06-14T01:47:00.010+08:00

I'm not the only one staring at the sun.

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Ey! What a gift to be human! May the world be well, happy and peaceful! Amen!

2010-06-11T01:02:00.004+08:00

I think this is it. This is the last time I'm cutting my hair in a long time. I'll have to wait for it to grow. GROW! GROW! ;) But for now, I'll have some fun and shock some people. I'm only young once.

I have a love-hate relation with all that attention, because I never did use to like those attention-seekers. Now, I think I can be considered one. STAB ME.

In this lifetime...

Natural Blues

2010-06-05T00:21:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Jack Johnson, Sleep through the static album

I realise I like to write, not just on my blog(I've been writing lesser on here since I know no one really bothers to read anw), but in a number notebooks I have. I like notebooks too much. I can never have to many. Atm I'm using 3. Just read some of the stuff I wrote in my notebook for 2009, I think I've grown more childish. Why?! Gosh, I think I've grown too preoccupied by nonsensical things.

I need to come back to the truth. God with me.

Ey, I think I'm too literal, that's why I'm having so much problems with art. My brother said this to me when I showed him my Art Prep work, "LOL, Art is not a GP paper. Your work looks like a science project."
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Today:
Extra lessons at school, Amath, EL, Motivational talk by Sch Counsellor. Had free beehoon lunch. Love it because I'm such a cheapo.

Went to Art friend with Joel&Wayne. Gosh, I have such strange friends. One that sits on the floor while waiting for the train and the other that wears School PE shorts to town. GJ. I like their company anw.

Called my cousin, Munmit, for a game of table tennis. Since we both aren't that good in the sport, ended up just playing around. So fun!! We went up the new block of flats ltr. I thought there wasn't anyone in one of the flats so I moved the window stilts to get a better look and then there was someone inside!! So embarrassing, so we ran away. HAHAHAA.

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I miss cycling, I miss cooking, I miss jamming.

I LOVE MY HAIR.

2010-06-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

Weee... I can't believe myself for getting a mohawk and a lip piercing within a week! Hehehe!! Really, I can't believe myself. Perhaps I'm a little too bored. Ey. Hmmm. I've been getting a lot of reaction(that's no wonder), its quite interesting how stranger look at me differently! It's all a laughing matter to me but my family thinks otherwise.

I'M EFFING struggling with that effing ART PREPORTORY work again. WHY IS IT SO HARD JUST TO CONCEPTUALIZE A SIMPLE IDEA?! ARGHHHHHHH. WHY SO I FEEL SO UNCREATIVE? T.T

I really hate it in the art room nowadays. SO MANY PEOPLE. I've got nothing against the lower secs and all, but I really hate it when its crowded and noisy, unless if I'm the one who's making the noise. They should close the sliding door thing and ON THE FREAKING AIRCON.

Why do some people say things that are offensive to me and expect it to be funny? Why? Why do people have such bad sense of humour. Why? Aiya... but its all good, still show them some face. Maybe its true, I need to be nicer and stop being so GL. HEHEHE!! _l_

Hi! I've got a new hair cut!

2010-05-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

Met Shu down at City Hall for Dinner. She was nice enough to accompany me to get a haircut.

Argh! I spent so much money today, $28 on hair, $18 on food, $8 on coffee. How am I suppose to last the week!?

Phone Pictures

2010-05-23T17:24:00.004+08:00

This was what I saw going home from school a few weeks back. I finally fulfilled my life long dream to see that what inside:

I always thought it was much deeper.

Ride to Bebok 2-3 weeks back. Stop at the well known Hawker at Blk 85 @ Bedok North Road.

Dominic recommended the Tang Yuan, I told Tang Yuan was Fish ball soup. But it was very good! Not to mention inexpensive, I'd definitely go back for some more!

From Yesterday's ART IP: This is what happens to Art students. We get too stress and start hiding around the around art room.
Not really, that's Wayne just trying to find somewhere dim enough so he can sketch from my com.

2010-05-22T18:35:00.003+08:00

Shu's Bday yesterday. Started quite awkwardly because not all of of us knew each other and just met some. My first time sitting on a table with majority being mass co. kids. But it got a little better after the alcohol. I got effing red on Breezer? Laughable. All went to watch Shriek ltr. Got home b4 2. Slept. Well, it was nice.

Art IP: 10-6. Reached at 11am, went off at 6. Barely did anything really. I'm just looking forward to cut my hair this week.

Goldfrapp's new single.

Doesn't this sound so ABBA-ish? I like their older, more electronic stuff better.

2010-05-21T00:23:00.003+08:00

Finally finished reading The Little Friend by Donna Tartt after months(five in fact) of reading it on and off during train rides. I was so eagar to finish the book that I read 70 pages today. Maybe its normal for other readers but not me, I'm not much of one in the first place. Anyway, the book is a mystery novel centered around this girl, Harriet, 12, setting out to find and kill the person who murdered her brother when she was a baby. So, I didn't get to know who the murderer was anyway. That was quite dissappointing.

Regarding school: I'd rather not talk about it. I can't stand the thought of continuing with my art prep work. Argh. I need support.

Can't wait for tomorrow; Shu's gonna have this little gathering for her birthday. Can't wait to chill.

The thing that scares me the most about being young is knowing I won't be for much long. I want to be forever young. Its true, youth is wasted on the young. I feel like eating tofu and spaghetti with creamy crab tomato sauce from muji now.

2010-05-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

The more I go through this process the more I think I should I've even tried taking another path. The normal academic stream is a total waste of time, people should just be allowed to do badly and not waste one more year.

Today:
- Late for School
- 18/20 for CL(B) LC, Good Job!
- Completed another sketch for Art
- Canteen not crowded
- EL results worst EVER
- Unable to get anything done 4 art IP
- 4hrs nap

I'm being so unproductive!!! I hate myself for that sometimes, but seems like the harder I try the harder it gets.

2010-05-04T20:25:00.000+08:00

I like them :)

2010-05-01T00:22:00.005+08:00

My hobby.
Cousin desperate to ride a trail

Waterproof bag my Uncle got me from Phuket. Love it!

Hi! I didn't go to school today. I was having a real dilemma in the morning: to go or not to go. Haiya! Regret not going; broke my record. Nevermind, what's done is done. I ended up sleeping till only 10. And I left my file in school! Michelle... Michelle...

Went to YewTeePoint to buy myself a Subway. Saw Ginny, Bjorn and Jeremy there.
After lunch, I actually planned to do some drawings but.. ended up playing with the Laptop. I plugged it into the TV. I was quite fascinated that I could see the Kpop stuff on a much bigger screen. LOL Shua Ku much! Its my first time doing that haha... Munmit called and wanted to go cycling, I agreed, but couldn't go far because I had meditation class at KMS later in the evening. We cycled to Bukit Batok via Brickland and came back by Upp Bukit Timah Rd. Had Bubble Tea at Limbang b4 heading back. Kranji kids need to find better hangout places, like, Limbang macs? Seriously?

After meditation class we(Joey) ate popeye's @ AMK.. Don't know why I suggested that place. Popeye's NEVER fail to make me nauseated(The the service was good though). Then home.

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Yesterday;

Finished the last prelim paper.
Emaths; Well, I didn't expect any much less. A do-able paper, but I was unable to do much of it. Well, I like to think that I still have time. Do let me know if you think otherwise.
Big thanks to Wei^2 wouldn't have been able to do the construction if it wasn't for her protractor ;D

I ran! I'm so proud and surprise with my performance.. I manage to run 4 rounds around Limbang park without stopping(2.4km). I realise I do like running... Maybe I should pick up long distance running too. :) That will help shed the 2kg I've gained! WTF!

Yesterday's dinner

I'm only happy when it rains.

2010-04-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

POURPOURPOUR!! WAHAHAHAAH!! I LOVE IT when it rains like that. I feel so... Protected? Hmm corny? Doesn't matter. Jack Johnson has a new single! Woohoo! Those that know me well or the kind of music I like should know I adore Jack Johnson's music. He always gets more popular.. but something tells me his never going totally mainstream(e.g. Jason Mraz). And I like that ;)

Music by Koreans.

2010-04-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

Wokay! So this is the new 2pm single that has be on such high anticipation. Well, actually I hadn't known it was coming so soon until I was just randomly clicking about allkpop. Erm what is with the tight leather pants on macho guys. If Shinee did wore them, it would be okay. But 2pm? And the headbands! I like them! So cute! AND NICKHUM'S HAIR. OMG Like WTF? GDragon no.2? In conclusion, they look like male stripers. Chansung is my current favourite! I'm NOOOOOOOO hottest though.

Now, that's something worth watching. I'm not a fan of Jay Park, but I earnestly love this song... Especially Clara's parts. Very Nina Simone, no? ;) Jay Park is of so much more worth doing this than some Korean pop. Good for him ;D

2010-04-20T22:06:00.003+08:00

I cycled 110km around SG w/ Joey Sim on Sunday! Wee! I'm so proud of myself.

Well, as you can see from the map its not exactly round SG because I didn't cycle past LCK because my knees were starting to really ache.

The ride was "Actually" suppose to start at 5am for me. But I had never intended to wake up that early. :/ Ended up leaving home at 6am to cycle to Woodlands to meet Joey first.

Made several stops around Singapore. Its a great way to really soak up the sight of Singapore.

1st Stop: Woodlands/Admiralty

2nd Stop: Jalan Kayu

3rd Stop: Pasir Ris

4th Stop: East Coast Park

5th Stop: Plaza Singapura(DG)

6th Stop: North Bridge rd

7th Stop: Lua Pa Sat (Lunch @ Wendy's)

8th Stop: West Coast Park

Ended reaching home at 3:30pm when the initial was to reach home by 1pm. I think we stop too much and for too long. This Sunday another round? 150km? Haha?! I don't know if I can man..

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Anyway school these days has been good for me. I like people that don't take themselves too serious:D

Why should I keep my hair in a certain way, behave in a certain way and have only a certain hobbies and interests just because of my gender. I want to do anything I want to do! And I'm very happy with myself. ;D

2010-04-12T20:24:00.001+08:00

One of my favourite quotes since I was born. Bumped into it again on someone's tumblr.

Okay! I'm losing weight! ;D

Super Short Weekends

2010-04-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

Saturday:(17km)

Woke up @ 9 from Art extra Classes. It lasted till 4+.. When for a short ride with Munmit to Bukit Botak. Hung at my aunt's place for a while for pizza. Then played around with Munmit's MTB below my block. By the time I got back its was 9pm. Got on the com for a while then went to Sleep!

Pictures:

Near perfect alignment of Little Gullin!

Munmit looking very yellow with my yellow roadie!

Et moi!

Sunday:

Woke up @ 1045 rushed down to Mac's to get my hotcakes that I've been craving for all week. Watched a little TV then went out w/ Jo and Zak(Below). Came home at 9+? Went out with my mom to acco. her for dinner. And I'm here now!

I haven't done a single piece of homework!! Time seriously flies!

SO HOT!! OMG

2010-04-11T22:41:00.003+08:00

What a fun, funny yet hot and tiring day!

Out w/ Joel & Zaki to take pictures for our Art Prep work.
First stop was to Marina Barage. We took a bus to Marina Bay to take a shuttle bus from there. We weren't really sure if where the shuttle bus was so we were talking about it loudly, then this man over heard us and asked
"where you going?"
"Marina Barage"
"Ya Correct here"
Then he asked "Go Marina Barage never bring girls ah? Hahaha"
LOL then we started laughing. It happens to me quite a lot, some times almost all the time depending on how I dress.
But.... Then he man suddenly realised I was a girl la. Gosh!! So embarrassing...
He apologised! So sweet!

We cabbed down to Haji Ln because Zaki was assigned to go there to snap some pics.
Then We walked to Mustafa. It was quite a long, hot and tiring walk. Those fatties couldn't stop complaining! Bought my plate there and took a couple of nice pictures.

Crowded street outside Mustafa

Sticker Cockroach @ Haji

MRT'ed to City Hall and headed to Peninsula Plaza because Joel wanted to buy a guitar strap. Zaki and me started jamming the song "Viva La Vida". The guy was like "Don't start your jamming here ah". We ran out immediately! I was testing the shakers okay!!

Walked to the flyer because those two INSISTED on Popeye's, which I'm totally not a fan of because its so oily. We passed the Esplanade on the way back to the MRT, then we heard some performance going on at the free stage.
The Vacant Affair was playing! I've heard of the band, seen them on TV, but never saw them live before. Man! They are pretty darn decent even though their genre is not my cup of tea.

An old uncle started dancing in front midway into the gig! I caught it on video!! Gonna upload it on FB. Funny sia!

A VACANT AFFAIR!

2010-04-08T23:14:00.003+08:00

Ey! I'm screwing up my body clock again! I slept at 3am++ yesterday, just because I couldn't fall asleep. It must have been the red-bull! Came home today and slept from 6-9pm. What a weird timing to have a nap. And I'm going back to sleep soon. ;D

(ah! my hair is growing too fast!)

Sleep!!!!!!

I want to get a fixie next! Because a fixed-gear bike has no brakes or gears, its a lot lighter! And they come in all sorts of outrageous colours to attract attention. ^^

I've also been thinking about racing. Hai, but I think, its not for me. See, I just want to have fun, live and let live. I don't have win or prove anything to anyone to be happy. But I will just for the fun of it, just not seriously. ;D;D

That has been my resolution(to be happy); and so far I think I've relatively successful, no? Haha! I love going to school nowadays. My fav lessons are Eng, Chi, Art. Sec 5s are fun people.

Joel was the one that introduced me to this band, 3 cheers for the kings of convenience!

2010-04-05T21:49:00.002+08:00

I would like to play some bike polo. :) Happy Birthday To Nicolette ^^

2010-04-04T21:47:00.004+08:00

Just some photos I had in my phone:

Saturday:

This is what they did after lunch.

Thursday Ride with Munmit:

Stanford house

F1 Pit Buidling

Munmit & Flyer

Going how the escalator with our bikes

Bitches

Pizza for Sports fiesta 27March

Setting up the parachute

Weekends & ...

2010-04-04T20:38:00.005+08:00

Ey! My long weekend is coming to an end. It really doesn't feel long at ALL.

Friday:

I spent the entire day sitting in front of the Telly, And... Doing amath Homework! ;D I haven't completed the ones MrT gave(because I don't know what they are), but I did manage to grasp the concept of, Linear Law, R formulae, Factor formulae. Good job Michelle!

Oh! NatGeoAdventure is my new favourite channel. Its travel and adventure combined! OMG so thrilling! I want to do what they do when I grow up! ;D

Went cycling with my two cousins after dinner. We cycled to West Coast Park. Think it was around 30km?, because we took Clementi rd back. Have been having problem trying to calculate my route distance on google maps. It just won't load. WTF. Bore me.

Reach home slightly before 1am.

Saturday:

Saturday was a really short day man. I woke up 9:30 to attend Art IP. And I'm so glad I did! Good job Michelle. I'm serious now. Watch me! ;P

I didn't really do much but mind map. I'm still having problems trying to find a clear concept. MsTeh suggested that I could do photography. I'm all for the idea, but I don't have a DSLR. ;(

And, I thought the external vendors that came were much nicer than from what I've hearing! Scare me!

Rushed off for the cell's TGIF. I was actually quite uncomfortable at first. Since I left the cell and all. But It was okay. I don't regret leaving, because this is really not my scene. It was nice to see them again though.

Sunday:

Woke up 5:30 for the Endurance Cycling at Brickland rd. My last cycling event of the year. Saw Deryck and his dad there! I was sosososososo disappointed in my performance. Like, cannot pedal!!!!!!!! Argh... I think the problem was that I didn't have a proper breakfast and I didn't warm up. Or maybe it was the iron pills that were constipating me!Argh!

Next year, I want to grow my hair(because there's no point being a girl if people can't tell), lose some weight(to cycle faster), get a full carbon bike(self-explanatory) and join competitive.

Cycled down to Rodalink to get my bike check because It was making so much noise and shifting on its own ever since Donald returned my wheel. I never want to lend anyone my wheel/wheel set ever again. Joey got new handle tapes(she couldn't stop complaining about how smelly they were after KinMeng road it for the Men's sport competitive.) ;D

I just woke up from a 6hr nap. ;D

Can't wait to see the pictures for Deryck's and Joey's Cam!

2010-03-26T00:04:00.003+08:00

Here's what I did to the bike that I brought from Joey. Total amount spent on this bike is $198.50(Including wheelset, bottlecage, paint, bike fixing, chain).

Then:

Now:

2010-03-25T23:05:00.004+08:00

A few people has told me to get serious about school.. Sigh.. I want to, but I just feel so sick and tired and lagging behind. I often find myself distracted in class or tired. I realise I need to try hard to concentrate fully in class. ey? why? Anyway, I didn't regret going to school and the trip today. It was fun! Shu's play was entertaining too!

Did I mention my pencil box has been missing for a week and it hasn't effected me much. Now, there's something seriously wrong with that.

Mosquito bite count: 38

Mummy museum!:

Deryck help kids out w/ the pyramaid origami! How sweet!

2010-03-24T19:25:00.002+08:00

Hi! Haven't been in school for the last 2 days because I've been very tired. Went to the clinic today to see if the lymph nodes on my neck was anything serious, ended up getting a blood test done. The results showed that the iron in my blood is very low. That explains why I'm always so tired. Doc gave me antibiotics for the lymph nodes and vitamin things for the iron prob.. Following up at NUH on 7th April. Means I won't be attending school that day! And I have like 20+ mosquito bites on my legs and arms now T.T

2010-03-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hi! Firstly, the aerobars I bought won't fucking fit. I'm very pissed about that because it cost me almost half my week's pocket money. Secondly, I want a mountain bike! I saw this one above selling on togo for $350. Looks dam good in picture... Omg......... I keep spending money.... shoot me

Have been driving 20-40km 4 days in a role.. I think its wearing me man...

2010-03-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

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2010-03-14T00:58:00.001+08:00

Wah! Danny you're so fine u blow my mind! I sincerely don't think its humanly possible to do what he does. He must have some kind of affinity with this the sport.